Calmly Chaotic

Tomorrow is the big day.  I think I am doing pretty well.  Oddly enough the trigger shot was virtually painless... I hardly even felt it.  The dosinex on the other hand made me quite dizzy and nauseaus...but it is all for the greater good so I will take it!

I am really trying to tell myself not to…

Yes the time has finally arrived!  We will be triggering at eight thirty tonight!  I am excited... so excited in fact that the bloat has neglected to bother me today... which is definitely a welcome change. 

I lost count during our ultrasound.  I have an abundance of follicles.  There is so much de…

My body apparently is not quite ready to give up its eggs... it is close... but not quite there. I am willing it to get ready soon. I hope it is working.

Our monitoring appointment this morning showed that I have many eggs... many that are close to the two centimeter mark. Multiply that by oh…

I put on my go-to low waisted leggings this morning and we headed out for some Christmas shopping.  I am not sure if I mentioned this previously but the only thing I can wear these days is this pair of leggings.  Well that is not entirely true, I did manage a pair of skinny jeans last night but the…

I have to admit that I am a little tired of writing updates about my anatomy.  I will relish the day when I can post solely about life...outside of infertility.  But for now at least I have good news.  It amazes me how much can happen in two short days, or how hard my ovaries have been working.  Th…

I failed to mention that I recently purchased the circle + bloom guided meditation series last week.  I have been religiously listening to it every night and if nothing else, it is definitely helping me relax and listen to my body.  The one part that I really like is how it explores and encourages …

The day started out strong.  The positive thoughts were flowing and there were no jittery nerves surrounding yet another blood test and ultrasound.  The tally now stands at sixteen still developing follicles on the left side and twenty two follicles on the right side, of which five are through the …

So I have successfully established that Repronex and I will not be friends.  I was warned of Repronex's less than stellar behaviour and it certainly did not dissappoint.  It hurt like hell. 

Okay I am really and truly sorry if you are embarking on the in vitro process and I am scaring you.  Tha…

First...some eye candy...we are embarking on a festive season...which means lots of excuses to dress up!

Now to the more serious topic at hand... my day four monitoring appointment which took place this morning.  Things are looking as they should so far, or that is what the doctor said anyways.  My…

I woke up today feeling good.  It took a minute to figure out why that was and then I remembered...it was seven years ago today when my Husband took a gamble and made a move.  Well it really was no gamble at all since I think it was plainly obvious that I was already in love with him.  Either way, …

I attempted to put up the Christmas Tree on Thursday night.  I was successful but it was not without a little challenge courtesy of Heidi and Little One.

Today's challenge... decorating it.  I went for something a bit different on the mantle this year.  I diverted from my Mother's mantra...…

I started out today a bit excited.  Excited to get things moving and to start the stimulants already.  I breezed through the blood-work... oh the wonders of what having a needle every day for sixteen days can do!  I waited all morning and for the better part of the afternoon in nervous anticipation…

It has been raining for a while now.  As much as I am not a winter person I am really hoping for snow soon.  At least snow brightens things up outdoors.  I will take that over the present oh so gloomy state.

I feel somewhat caught between what I think I am supposed to feel right now and what I actu…

I will bake.  Soon.  I promise.  I keep thinking about it but I need to actually do it.  I have spent some time on my go to cooking website... Smitten Kitchen... discovering several mouth watering options.  So far these are the finalists...

Next stop... the grocery store and possibly Home Sense for…

In yet another attempt to continue to distract myself I went on a hunt for some Christmas green...litterally. We are now the proud owners of one paperwhite and two Cupressus Goldcrests. I am loving the added green so far. Next up... the Christmas tree!

Heidi is loving the green too!

There. I ha…

Yes I would very much rather be hiking... or even running... or at body attack.  I would even settle for some body pump at this point.  The forced hibernation of the last couple of weeks has been tough and has very inconveniently coincided with my last hard exercise window.  That opportunity has co…

I am unsure if it is the fact that I have finally escaped the confines of our house for more than an hour, that I spent a lovely but frigid hour outside this morning paying tribute to Remembrance Day, or that I enjoyed a non fat extra hot tazo chai... but whatever is it, it is working.  I am feelin…

I wish I could take a vacation from my thoughts... even just a short vacation... even for just five minutes.  Lately I seem to be following the following pattern...happy one minute having successfully convinced myself that everything really is going to work out and we are going to get the Christmas…

I am feeling significantly more human today.  I can almost talk without launching into coughing hysteria and today was the first morning since I started the Suprefact injections that I failed to have a headache.  I would say that this is a good day if it was not for the fact that I did not sleep la…

I neglected to post yesterday since I officially have bronchitis.  Again.  I just had it in August.  The good news is that I got antibiotics and an inhaler yesterday and I am feeling a bit more human today.  The other good news is that this is okay right now.  In a week from now it would not be oka…

Yes I am aware that it is merely the first week of November.  As far as I am concerned as soon as the pumpkin is thrown out, it is socially acceptable to contemplate the Christmas season and all of the decorating and gift purchasing that goes along with it.  Besides, I need to keep myself busy righ…

This print makes me want to drag my sick self off of the couch and put on something pretty...

The day did not start well.  Both the nurse and patient woke up feeling quite sick this morning.  We knew we had to go to the lesson so we sucked it up and got ourselves to the clinic.  The nurse at the clinic was great.  I do find some of the clinic staff to be far too positive and slightly unreal…

Well I have successfully given myself a very sore throat.  I started off the day with a lovely headache and it seemed to progress into an overall throbbing and now I have capped it off.  Oh the things I am capable of when stressed!  If only I could somehow use these powers for something more positi…

This is my Sister.  I think the picture really does speak for itself.  She is a theatre student... can you tell?  She is awesome and I miss her so much.  Vancouver... you are one luck city!


Happy Monday!  Hope you had just as much fun on Halloween as she did!