Calmly Chaotic

So we had a bit of a surprise this morning, well honestly a big surprise... our ultrasound showed us a nice picture of our yolk sac and then it showed us a nice picture of our second yolk sac. 

Okay I am going to admit that I did not see this coming.  I mean my beta was in the three-hundreds... so…

Oh to be blonde... and so blonde I might add....

I constantly feel like drifting into sleep... all day long.  This is okay this week... I am at home.  Next week when I am officially back to work... it might prove to be somewhat of a challenge.

Until then...

Santa was too good to me as always. 

Here are a few of my favourite things...


 
Did I mention I am exhausted?  Back to the couch I go...

Merry Christmas!  Santa was definitely here and out did himself as usual.  It was a wonderful and exhausting day.  We started out by hosting brunch at our house which of course involves champagne cocktails (for all but me this year), freshly baked cranberry orange muffins, lots and lots of present …

Nail polish that is.... so on my quest for a natural pregnancy book I came across a so called organic pregnancy book.  At first glance I thought that this could very well be the book I have been seeking... but upon further investigation I concluded that this book is more likely to make me crazy par…

About a month ago when I was only on suprefact and the pill I thought I would paint our master en-suite.  I chose Farrow & Ball's Pavillion Grey and went to town on three of the walls.

Then I started Puregon.... then I gained seven pounds and could no longer bend... really at all... so Andr…

As of five pm today I now have four pregnancy related books... oh wait make that five.  Did I mention I like to read and research the hell out of everything?  I am slightly obsessive when it comes to researching major life events.  It usually takes me a good two months of research to even decide on…

It is starting to sink in that this is real.  Friday afternoon I allowed myself to wander over to the pregnancy section of the bookstore and finally said goodbye to the fertility section.  (More to come on that in the next few days as the books in the bookstores simply will not do.  I am not into t…

I am pregnant!!! 

I am really pregnant.  I am still absorbing this news!  I spent this morning in a state of terror huddled up on the couch cringing and sighing and worrying myself to death.  The clinic called an hour ago.  Andrew answered (we planned it this way) and I could not tell from his bod…

Oh I am so nervous right now!  I kind of want a time machine... but kind of not.  A time machine could take me to Friday so I would know if I am pregnant... but the time machine could also crush my dreams.  Ignorance is truly bliss right now. 

I have been so so good today.  No desperate google sear…

The permanent fragile look on my face has disappeared.  Things are looking up again.  Today was issue free.  I can breathe again. 

Of course I am still petrified.... but I am definitely feeling more optimistic.  I am hoping and wishing that tomorrow will be the same and that Thursday will be the sa…

Today was rough.  I woke up to some not so positive symptoms (in the form of spotting... sorry if this is way too much information) and started google-ing like a mad woman.  It seems that for every reassurance that what I am feeling is normal, there is also a story that confirms my worst fears.  Th…

Today is Sunday so I have another five days to go until we know whether this worked.  Every minute is hard.  My mind needs an off button.  The constant analyzing of potential symptoms is just plain agonizing...  This type of waiting should really be illegal.

Yes I saw the postings of others during …

The new oh so anticipated issue of Lonny Magazine was revealed to the world yesterday.  It is fabulous.  It makes me want to paint several surfaces in our home (which is obviously a bad idea... and I will resist... for now)!

I have six days remaining in my wait.  I think the word torture is the onl…

Well I just got off the phone with my sister.  I am still laughing.  She is in a vintage shop in Vancouver right now with her roommate.  They are purchasing a giant vintage couch at the pretty price of sixty five dollars.

That is not the funny part.

The funny part is the sheer excitement at another…

That I LOVE hugs?

Silver and gold...so pretty...

Today is my first full day of waiting... and hoping and sending warm thoughts to my embryos.  I have spent most of the day in chair.  Curiously both of our cats seem to have taken up permanent posts wherever I am... it is almost as if they know what is going on and that they are working for the cau…

I am officially pregnant until proven otherwise!  We transferred two blasts (five day transfer) this morning.  Our embryos were busy last night... busy growing and improving!  Yes the quality definitely improved since yesterday.  Things were no longer looking anything close to bleak.  I could breat…

I discovered a blog yesterday....Le Love... and it is fabulous.  Who can resist daily reminders of love...

Plus I just love this...

Well we were riding the no news state until this morning.  Yesterday I spoke with the nurse a couple of times.  Did I mention that my stomach is approximately six inches larger post egg retrieval than it normally is.... not exactly comfortable..  As of yesterday everything was good and our transfer…

We did not receive a call from the clinic today which means that so far everything is on track for a five day transfer on Monday.  So far so good!!

Happy weekend!

ps... don't you love this dress?

Yes we have ten successfully fertilized embryos!!  I am so relieved right now.  I received the call at nine am this morning and was so happy to hear that it was a nurse calling us.  For some sadistic reason the nurse during our information session warned us that if a doctor calls us for the fertili…

I survived the egg retrieval!!  This is me..giving myself a huge pat on the back.  To be honest, it was not as bad as I had imagined... well that and the fact that I was somehow able to not get myself too worked up pre procedure.

We arrived at the clinic at seven thirty am.  A not so friendly nurse…

Thank you to Randi over at Fervently Wishing for the Cherry on Top Blog Award!  Randi is a wonderful young woman on her own journey towards motherhood.  She is scheduled for surgery tomorrow so please go on over and wish her luck!


I am passing this award on to five of my daily blog reads

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