what happens when you don't blog for two months

first you feel guilty

then you miss it

then you just ignore the pull of the computer altogether

email... what's that?

then you do the following and try not to feel guilty about choosing it over everything else:

consume mass amounts of starbucks via ice coffee (don't try it unless you want to become an addict, you've been warned)

watch all the episodes of Homeland and then get mad because you have to wait until the fall to see more of it

attempt potty training

learn about a magical three day method and then stop what you are doing

feel your jaw drop open for the tenth time that day because one of your daughters has just said yet another new word

go to the park

go back to the park

maybe we should just live there

plan three vacations

one in which involves a week away with just your husband

take three weeks to actually click through to book that trip because does that make me a terrible mother?

order new bikinis because the ones you have will not work with this twelve year old body you seem to have developed post twins because I'll be damned if I don't look good while I do exactly nothing but lie on a chair and drink pina coladas for one week

do more yoga in the span of two months then you've done in the past year

crow headstand crow... I've missed you

run, gym, run

try my best to parent without the goal being to control... I will not try to control my children... I will not!

clean

the type of cleaning where I am scrubbing at the floor on my hands and knees for the fourth time today

more cleaning because you get rid of your cleaning ladies now that you have more time to clean

read

lots and lots of reading

like a book every two days

the latest... The Sea of Tranquility... definitely worth reading

then you write 70 000 words give or take because a week before april started you decided to do camp nano

and still haven't finished a first draft

but i will

that's what I am thinking right now. I am on the computer... I should be writing not blogging

but I miss it

I wish I didn't because then I would still have more time for the everything else

but I do

I feel like I dropped half of me off back in March because blogging is almost like having two sides of you that you have to maintain

the everyday breathing, walking, parenting, wife-ing, daughter-ing and friend-ing you and then the virtual you

I miss all of you

and if you could just send me a synopsis of your life to my email once a week that would be fabulous

because then I might have a shot in actually getting to it

but I don't see that happening so I will have to make do

with not knowing, but hoping that everyone is off living 

and if you've made it this far well then good for you

now if you could just go and send me a quick email getting me up to date on your last two months that would be much appreciated!

(i am not kidding)